When you get married the question starts… “When can we expect a baby?” You roll your eyes and say “it will be a while.” We decided to have our first daughter after being married for a year and a half so the question finally stopped. Now that she is a year old it has started back over again. “When are you going to have another one?” Let me explain why there won’t be another one right now. 

When you find out your pregnant your emotions are so high with excitement, joy, fear, worry, love and the unknown. Now your a year in and you wouldnt have it any other way. I would give her anything and give her 100% of my time! Why would I want to cut that short? I for one, want to enjoy these small stages for as long as I can. She will always be the first but after I have another she will no longer be the only.

Tonight I hold her and watch her favorite, Sofia the First… I never want these little moments to end. Having a baby did not come easy for me and my husband. After miscarriages, the baby you do have is called a “Rainbow Baby”. My Rainbow baby is everything of the sort, she is beautiful, breathe taken, unexpected and proof of Gods promises. I always believed that God wanted me to have a baby he would give me one when the time was right and he did. 

After we had her our emotions were everywhere being she was put into the NICU. We fought to have her and fought to get her home.. We have had nothing but love ever since. So for now, I want to enjoy these little moments, I want to give her every piece of my heart, I want her to know for now she is my one and only! One day we will have another and my heart will be completely ready to open that love to another child but for now my heart is wrapped up in these little fingers. 

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